Abstruse Musing

Tonight I found myself pondering about the pieces of myself from the past. That one thought has led me back here, a very personal outlet that I haven't frequented since 2012. The world as I know it now is vastly different from my last entry from almost 4.5 years ago. I wonder if my thoughts from all these years is still being read by someone or if someone related to my feelings at the time. Fast forward 4.5 years later and I am immersed in the corporate world. I've experienced change, found my other half, aggressively pursued my career goals and learned the hard way that work-life balance is important. To me, this blog holds a special place because everything I have experienced from the first entry has made me more resilient.

I need to really learn to sleep early. Sleeping 3 hours then waking up to go to class is not the most ideal thing to do... Yet I still do that sometimes. So went to the markets down at The Rocks with Pisan today. It was quite nice and probably was the best thing about this week. I wish I could've been the usual asian tourist and snapped pictures frantically at everything in sight. Pity I forgot my camera. Good food, good company and a bit of jazz music. That is all I need as a good ending note to the notorious weekdays. I really have a problem with commitment. Especially with the bonsai craze a while ago. I'd start something then become so indifferent and bored with it. Maybe I really can't take that leap of faith (you know who you are). I can't do something I don't believe in whole heartedly. I have to calculate every single thing I do or decide on, this just doesn't fit the equation. I can't run the risk. I'll just keep giving up at regular interva...

So maybe it was wise to watch some Seinfeld. One particular episode, "The Opera", was quite humorous. It mentioned an opera named Pagliacci and the storyline is quite intruiging. I thought I'd look up if it was showing in the opera soon, but I failed. Seems it was shown at the Opera House in January or February. Pity. I hope it comes back up soon! Sometimes I think you bear resemblances to Canio. Maybe even I take on that role at times. I listened to you mumble on the phone moments ago. I really had no idea what you were saying again. I sat there for 5 minutes listening to those inaudible mumbles. My lack of responses today led you to believe I was drowsy. I was not drowsy, I just couldn't comprehend to your words. I just couldn't pay attention to those mumbles, but to hear you was plenty enough.