Abstruse Musing

Out of sight, constantly on my mind.

How I adore this piece of work by Natascha Sadr Haghighian. I absolutely fell in love with it when I first laid eyes on it at MCA. Needless to say, I stood in the art gallery quite transfixed by the immaculate placement of nails hammered into the gallery wall. I think the picture speaks for how I feel right now. My mind feels like it is all over the place. Scattered about here and there. I really am finding it difficult to focus myself, there is too much on my mind lately. Do you pursue something even though you know there isn't a future? How do you say the words you have no voice to articulate? How the hell can I contain my sanity? It seems even I can't work like this.

A while ago, someone said something which I continued to ponder  upon.  Time goes by, you can't let it consume you. I'm still thinking about that, but its more plausible to say my thoughts are consuming me. Everything seems so out of focus right now... I've wasted a good hour sitting here reading a very interesting blog. I really must not read any more blog entries nor fagbook any more, my test is not on either one of those topics! Think microbiology and pathways! Everyone has slept, except me. Its 8:30am now, and I'm famished. I got the new Vegemite last night, its not as salty as the original... I've come to discover the new Vegemite tastes really nice with pitted olives in a sandwich. Strange combination I know, my family gave me really strange looks... My thoughts are still consuming me.

I'm distracted. I'm already distracted. Sigh! I need to get studying tonight. I have my practical class tomorrow and I had better prepare for it. I guess I can't drop old habits. Its like that old saying. You can take a man out of the cave, but you can't take the cave out of a man. The same concept applies to me, I can't stop doing everything in the last minute. I guess that is something I have yet to change in myself. Mumble, mumble. I really had no idea what you were saying again. I tried my best to pay attention (with my short attention span). But quite frankly, I just couldn't comprehend to what you're saying. Still, I listened to you mumble for a good 10 minutes. If the moon smiled, it would resemble you. You leave the same impression of something beautiful, but annihilating. Too lazy to upload another snap. And as Susu says, "and now to study!" If only I had that sort of enthusiasm right now.