Abstruse Musing

One of my many problems is that I tend to hold onto things. I'm sentimental and I don't like to throw things out, I still have old Christmas cards from when I was in primary school. The thing which bothers me most is my adeptness in remembering things, it takes me a long time to get over things. Within the last few days, I've grown increasingly annoyed at a friend. For the sake of this post, I shall refer to this individual as G. I'm the kind of person that becomes bored and indifferent whenever I am faced with repetition. G has harped on about developing feelings for someone and hoped for their relations to blossom. At first I thought it was merely two interested parties dancing about social norms. But it could be suffice to say that those feelings were partly unrequited for. G was infatuated with this person and towards the end, I grew so tiresome of hearing about those fruitless tales. I felt as though we were wasting our time trying to console G because all o...

I've really had enough of the shit people do. And its no wonder that I seem to have a problem trusting people. Everytime I try to trust someone, they just throw it all away. Well if you are reading this, pay some god damn attention for once. Yes, you know who are . I know I am far from perfect, maybe I am in no position to judge. But I'm really tired. I mentioned the last decade never seemed to slow down. Perhaps no one understood the depth of what I was saying. And so, I will clarify that now. Things never slowed down ever since I was a child. Crying was second nature to me, it was almost as natural as breathing. I did not live with the world's most perfect family, I did not have picture perfect parents, I did not have happiness like most children did. I had a "father" who thought hitting a child with a cane was an okay thing to do. I feared him, I resented him, and most of all - I wished I had no father. And to this day, I still hate him. He never respected m...