déjà vu

Today was the first back at uni. I wasn't looking forward to dragging myself out of bed, but somehow I managed to do that at 5:30am. Quite unprecedented, I know. Today was a very cold day, it was just another seemingly grey day looming ahead. I was quite frustrated because I wasn't able to do everything I needed to do in the morning on time. Instead of catching the 7:45am express train, I caught the 8:05am train.

I guess I prefer to take charge with everything I do. But I shouldn't let that bother me, I'm sure everything will go according to plan tomorrow. Hopefully. I was lapsing in and out of thought whilst on the train, as I always do, and I happened to overhear a conversation. A guy was asking his friend how his internship was going, and the other asked how long he had until his degree was done. It sparked some more thinking for me. One responded, "I'm 6 months into my internship." Sometimes I wonder when I'll be talking about that sort of thing. My mind is so volatile like a Fluorine molecule, I'll always be greedy for more knowledge, I'll always want to see the changes in myself.

And so my grey day continued, I sat there thinking in the train and dreading my 9am lecture with Cheryl. We all filed out of the train once the doors opened. No one spoke, no one wore any expression on their face, no one grunted (as they do when you try to get off a full carriage). Everyone walked in unison down the escalator, the ticket machines clicked rapidly as the tickets were inserted, and everyone wandered off with an almost blank expression. I really hate those peak hour trains. People look so robbed of life, youth and emotions. I'd hate to think that one day, after I've graduated, that I'll become one of these expressionless people on the train.

Oh yes, I just thought I'd sneak in a picture from a friend's 21st. It was a Casino Royale themed party. I was quite impressed with the pokie machine her parents had set up. I simply adored the notice next to the pokie machine, it was absolutely hilarious. "Is gambling causing you problems? Call 1800SUCKERS. Every 1 in 10 callers wins a prize." Pity that hotline doesn't work, I know a few people that could use that service. I'm still wondering what to do, but I will hold out for this semester. Biochem & Micro don't seem so bad (for now anyway) since they touch upon similiar concepts this semester. I only hope I can stay interested for long enough. I can't wait til Friday to go to my HR & IR strategy class, it'll be a bit of a change from my science classes.

Theres probably another goodbye I need to say, and I've been meaning to for quite some time. But I've always hesitated in doing so. I can't stand when someone lies to me, I just totally lose faith in that person. Why isn't that the case with this certain person? I always find you an excuse when something goes wrong, I really should stop this vicious cycle once and for all. Maybe I should develop an apathetic attitude towards this person? Today someone said something to me. These wise words prompted much thinking. I'm still pondering on it...
Believe nothing you hear, but half of what you see.

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