Abstruse Musing

I remember ignoring a certain classmate when I'm upset with her. There was a certain girl back in kindergarten, I'll call her N (I sure hope I haven't already used that letter already). I can't remember why I was mad at her but she kept apologising to me. I recall crossing my arms and telling her that we were not friends any more and I would never forgive her. I totally forgot all about that until I saw her again in 7th grade. Old habits are really had to break, and especially if they stem from the early days of childhood. I still find it hard to forgive a person even at the age of 20. There was even a time that it took me 5 years or more before I could bring myself to forgive someone and actually say hello to them. Human nature is a strange thing. Sometimes we do not cherish what we have, we only realise the importance and true value of something until we've lost it. I tend to forget that I shouldn't ignore people when I get annoyed or mad at them. I guess th

"Just think of it like a bandaid. Right off." - Jerry Seinfeld

Is the severity or gravity of the illness of such an extreme nature that the patient will/was not able to sit the formal exam? The doctor answered no, because he thought extreme nature was limited only to car accidents or being admitted into hospital. I refuted it means that the patient was unfit to sit the exam. Still he thought he was right. So I suggested that I step outside and call the student centre to make sure, he still insisted he was right. I called twice, and I was told my interpretation of the question was correct. Okay so my application for deferring my exam got rejected and I was advised to submit it again. I was so distraught it was rejected, but he seems pretty oblivious to that. "Oh your application got rejected?" Hi, I told you that twice today..? He still insists he is right, so I told him to write a little message on the application to state that I was unfit to sit my exam. Pity the answer to that question above is still marked with a cross on the respo

Today was my HR/IR exam, I sat down in my chair and thought the room was familiar. I remember doing my Biology 1 final there in first year, and I had a really bad experience there. I recall an acquaintance wanting to sit next to me, god I hated his guts so much. He sat next to me and kept asking me if I answered a particular question and even attempted to take my multiple choice answer sheet. Of course I objected, perhaps I should've been more assertive to get my message across to this thick headed jerk. The examiner came to tell him to stop talking, thank god. Now I remember why I hate this jerk so much. Good luck with becoming a maths teacher. I honestly don't know how you can want to be a teacher when you think cheating is something acceptable. Okay on a lighter note, I was waiting for my train back home today. It was an excruciating 28 minutes of waiting in searing heat. A commuter was rushing to get on the train and nearly knocked a lady over. A bystander bellowed at the

I've always liked driving with Tim, even though at times he is a reckless driver. Take for example, him continually going round and round at the round abouts. We have an unexplained liking for waving at strangers in passing cars and find it absolutely hilarious to watch their reaction. Maybe our deadly high fives are just as weird. To me, a high five isn't a high five unless you can distinctly hear when the two hands collide and leave a red mark. And theres Dani, I was never really close to her until probably this year. We got to know each other over coffees at night, scrabble, and Cluedo by candlelight. She always seems to have something wise to say and so keen about life. I'll always remember when Tim and Dani came to save me when I was reduced to tears that evening (many weeks ago). We went back to Tim's place and Dani gave me a tissue with a few drops of lavender oil. That certainly calmed me down and I'll probably always remember that day. I came across som

Lately, Cindy and I have taken quite an interest in watching parrot related videos on youtube. I quite adore this one that we watched earlier. I wish Noddy did something like that. Well anything besides saying "no Noddy, no" or trying to yank earrings off my ear.

Sometimes I muse that I would move away and start off fresh. I wonder if I would be brave enough to really embark on such an adventure into the unknown. It seems apparent the older you get, the frequency of headaches and major decisions gradually increase. Life isn't as crystal clear nor clear cut as I once thought it would be, there isn't really any clarity as to whether you've made the right decisions. That is until you actually make the transitional change and see what outcomes are reaped. So I guess I'll patiently await whatever outcomes will be presented.

How I adore this piece of work by Natascha Sadr Haghighian. I absolutely fell in love with it when I first laid eyes on it at MCA. Needless to say, I stood in the art gallery quite transfixed by the immaculate placement of nails hammered into the gallery wall. I think the picture speaks for how I feel right now. My mind feels like it is all over the place. Scattered about here and there. I really am finding it difficult to focus myself, there is too much on my mind lately. Do you pursue something even though you know there isn't a future? How do you say the words you have no voice to articulate? How the hell can I contain my sanity? It seems even I can't work like this.

Today I went into uni to hand in my biochem kit key. Pity Herbert wasn't there so I had to hand my key into the other technical staff in the office. I stopped at the stairs and was sort of transfixed by the lighting above the stairs. It reminded me of Earth Science classes. We all sat in front of the stairs and once Christine mentioned the light looked an awful lot like a pokemon of some sort. That light certainly bears similarities to a Pineco... Striking resemblance. I think I've seen one too many pokemon re-runs... I think I am getting a bit too stressed lately. I handed in the papers for deferring my micro exam. I really wasn't up to it. But I'm not going to stress about it. I'm just going to focus on the HR/IR exam for now then worry about the deferred exam. I was spacing out at Parra station today (horrid heat), and noticed two people a few metres ahead of me communicating with sign language. I've always wanted to learn sign language when I was in

I feel much better after talking to Donna today. I'm glad I made the decision to speak to her. I was really worried about making an appointment to speak to her. I didn't know what to expect at all. She has given me a lot to think about and a lot to rethink too. This nocturnal habit of mine is probably doing me no good and I'd really like to change. But it is too difficult to uproot a habit which has been apparent for the last 5 or 6 years. I told her I'd speak to her again after exams and we would work out a few ways for me to change my bad habits. I do look forward to doing that. So I finally dropped biochem 2 today and filled in a form to drop it without academic penalty. I don't think I'd cope too well with that subject. I felt like I was suffocating when it came to writing up my lab book. I enjoyed the laboratory work but I did not like writing up reports. I've had holistic reactions from my friends from biochem2. One actually supported it and wished s

I wish society was a little more forgiving to nocturnal people... I don't like the notion of social conformity, it just isn't a social norm to be nocturnal at all. I was putting in my preferences for my UAC application during the fine hours of morning, I was all satisfied with my selection and went to submit it. Little did I know UAC did site maintenance after midnight. So now I have to put all my preferences in again. I guess I will never do anything on UAC at 3am, I shall take note of that. I can't focus, I can't find an inkling of motivation right now. My motivation has been on holiday for many years, perhaps it assumes the pattern of a Snorelax. Only to awaken once every few months (perhaps years). Maybe I just need to find something which genuinely interests me, hence the UAC application. I am so bankrupt after making my late application, sometimes being spontaneous can cause a big dent in my bank account. Perhaps I should limit my spontaneous decisions. I'

Well I printed out my UAC papers and I guess I'll pay for it next week sometime. I feel genuinely lost. I thought I was alone on this one, but I guess Helen was a tad lost herself too. I guess we'll all settle these things soon... Okay so we all went to MSL's house yesterday to sort of model for her assignment. By modelling I mean we had to pretend to sing and look like we were having a great time. Needless to say, we were not very good with pretending to be happy. It was sort of bizarre to have a camera pointed in your direction without the need to stifle a few chuckles here and there. Well we had to play a little game she made for her project. The game consisted of questions to pin point whether a person's lifestyle was sustainable or not. The funny part was the unsustainable people (Fok & Tony) had to sing a song we call 'eat it' , which was a hilarious MJ knock off. It was pretty fun, posing for snaps and repeating a few lines here and there. I